I hate it when it comes to matters of the heart. I am so lost...no thats not the word. I dont know where I am when it comes to whats in my heart. I feel stuck, like I cannot move on. Like I am being held back in the past, but yet I look forward to the future. I have potentially complicated things greatly, or moderately. Not sure to the degree yet. Have to figure that one out. I just have to decide first on a matter, or determine when a certain matter of the heart is resolved. uggg.

On that matter, it can be said that my head is so confused. I dont know how to sort things out. It is a jumbled mess. I have to slowly declutter and categorically reorganize what is in my head. Ahhhh.