This morning was really bad. I wasnt in the mood for anything. All I wanted to do was to cry and to do some kick boxing to get my emotions out. I have had such high blood pressure since last Friday.

I am so heart broken, I dont know what to do to fix it. I just want my sadness to go away. I want to be happy again. But I dont know how. It feels like half my heart is gone and that I will never get it back. I got attached to you and I felt so comfortable with you. I think next time I wont get attached or comfortable. I am going to play it safe and try not get my heart broken a second time. I have put my guard up, this wall up. I am taking this so roughly. I hate to be this dramatic and this sad. But I really cant help it.