so anyways, went out with kakes and kevin tonight. Went to some house party. It seemed pretty cool. Lots of kids and good music. I found it mellow. It was a nice change from what I have been doing lately on weekends...which is nothing. Story of my life I suppose.
I am getting more and more furstrated. I have no clue if it is vaild or not. Vaild yes from my point of view, but perhapts not in others eyes. At least Katie agrees with me. All I want is to be valued for me, what I am. I want to be appreciated and to be thought of. My feelings are taking on a deeper kind of emotion. All I wantis to feel loved. I havent felt that in a while.

I want the summer to come so badly. I want to see where things are then......

Why am I crying over you? This is how it wasnt meant to be. I never thought I'd cry over this. Story of my life right.