Laura says:
hey babes
Laura says:
my mother says your our snow angel.
Tyler says:
hahahaha
Tyler says:
it was starring at me today
Tyler says:
while i was shovelling mine
Laura says:
lol thanks babes, your so good to us and our side walk/ drive way
Tyler says:
well i try my best
Laura says:
well you sure are geting brownie points from her, by shovling our snow.
Tyler says:
lol it's no big deal honest
Tyler says:
it would feel terrible if i didn't do it
Tyler says:
you 4 are all so tiny
Tyler says:
and your pops is away
Laura says:
lol, tiny, i am sure
Laura says:
lol, you are such a gentlemen
Tyler says:
not really
Laura says:
ya you are most of the time
Laura says:
o and i got your email about that song,
Laura says:
and i have to download it on the other computer so
Tyler says:
yeah LExus returned my e-mail
Tyler says:
ok when you get around to it
Tyler says:
it may be tough to find
Laura says:
well i will try my very best
Laura says:
i missed you so much today
Tyler says:
i missed you too darling
Tyler says:
you have no idea how beautiful you looked last night
Tyler says:
i am sorry i couldn't be any more help than i was
Laura says:
no, i looked horrible
Tyler says:
i didn't know anythign about the material i am a heretic
Laura says:
nah your help was plenty
Tyler says:
no no no
Tyler says:
if you think you looked horrible last night, i am going to have a heart attack when you think you look beautiful
Tyler says:
darling you were drop dead gorgeous i couldn't stand up
Laura says:
i was in my sweats and a t-shrit that smelt bad.
Laura says:
thats not drop dead gorgeous,
Laura says:
you wait i will get all drop dead gorgeous one day
Tyler says:
you were
Tyler says:
and are
Tyler says:
every day
Tyler says:
naturally
Laura says:
lol. sure.
Laura says:
o ya i found a more classical watch that i want for christmas, well there are 2. you will think they are much better.
Tyler says:
darling it doesn't matter what i think
Tyler says:
it's what you want
Laura says:
http://www.sears.ca/gp/product/B000GIPA7Y/sr=1-6/qid=1163495635/ref=sr_1_6/102-2755733-5635334?ie=UTF8&searsBrand=core&mqnodeid=16332211
Tyler says:
i'll get you anything
Laura says:
http://www.sears.ca/gp/product/B000HU714Q/sr=1-6/qid=1163495565/ref=sr_1_6/102-2755733-5635334?ie=UTF8&searsBrand=core&mqnodeid=16332211
Laura says:
no i like your input in things concerning me. its good to have a second opinon
Tyler says:
honest to god babes
Tyler says:
i will get you the punk one
Tyler says:
i know you like it
Laura says:
babes, no.
Laura says:
i change my mond
Laura says:
mind
Laura says:
i need a dressy one anyways
Laura says:
and you have to tell me more that you would like for christmas.
Laura says:
and not just that $30 game
Tyler says:
that's fine
Laura says:
no, babes, what else
Tyler says:
you can give me a nice big kiss too
Laura says:
lol. o dont worry you will be getting that and o so much more
Tyler says:
well that's good then honey
Laura says:
just good...okies.
Tyler says:
i will love that
Tyler says:
i don't need many material things honey i don't have many possesions
Tyler says:
i just need your love that's all that matters
Laura says:
then i dont need an watch from you, just you.
Tyler says:
hahaha
Tyler says:
the price difference doesn't matter honey
Laura says:
o no i am not looking at that babes.
Laura says:
just sentimental value
Tyler says:
what?
Laura says:
like meaning, what i want to give you must have meaning.
Tyler says:
what?
Tyler says:
what i want from you must have meaning?
Laura says:
no no.
Laura says:
i want to give you something that has meaning behind it. what that is i have no idea. and i dont just want to give you a big kiss either.
Tyler says:
well
Tyler says:
you can get me anythig you like honey
Tyler says:
if you feel the need
Laura says:
lol okies. i think i have something now. well 2 things now.
Tyler says:
do i still get my game?
Laura says:
ya you do. and some of my cookies too
Tyler says:
http://www.amazon.ca/Command-Conquer-The-First-Decade/dp/B000CPKIT6/sr=8-2/qid=1164343604/ref=sr_1_2/701-3468201-5871521?ie=UTF8&s=videogames
Tyler says:
that's the one
Laura says:
lol okies
Tyler says:
which watch do you want
Tyler says:
honestly
Tyler says:
regardless of what i say, i didn't mean it, i was just kidding
Tyler says:
i like the leather one
Laura says:
i like the champane colored dressy one i showed you tonight
Laura says:
i'll buy the leather one after christmas.
Tyler says:
why would you get two?
Laura says:
so that i can switch them off and on when my moods vary
Laura says:
you have 2 watches there buddy
Tyler says:
i have a really old one
Tyler says:
and one i got for grad because my dad worked for Shell for 25years and got a watch as a present he didn't want
Tyler says:
so i got it
Laura says:
lol. nice grad gift.
Tyler says:
lol
Tyler says:
i got a tent too
Tyler says:
and a knife
Laura says:
o lordy you are sounding to much like kevin, not that it is bad.
Laura says:
o ya that reminds me, do you want to join kakes and kevin and i to strip poker,
Tyler says:
what
Tyler says:
i don't own a gun
Tyler says:
jesus christ
Laura says:
kakes metioned to me today that she was talking to him
Laura says:
and he wanted to play with kakes and i
Tyler says:
....
Laura says:
what????
Tyler says:
jesus
Laura says:
fine dont then
Tyler says:
lol
Tyler says:
Kevin says he has no idea what is going on
Tyler says:
he is as baffled as i am
Tyler says:
he thinks you and katie are going to play
Laura says:
o well then i will have to inform kakes that she is wrong
Tyler says:
o really i did not know that haha, i had no idea what was really going on
Tyler says:
that's what he said
Tyler says:
fuck you two are crazy
Laura says:
i told you we are quite the pair
Tyler says:
i haven't failed to notice
Laura says:
o i am so sure.
Laura says:
so can i see you tomorrow before you go to that birthday party. i am not sure when i will get back from shopping with my mother, but i hope i can catch you before you leave.
Tyler says:
you can come with us
Laura says:
what..... no...no. where are you guys going?
Tyler says:
some bar
Laura says:
thats alot of help.
Laura says:
when do you plan to leave
Tyler says:
9
Tyler says:
you can come over tmr when you get home give me a call
Tyler says:
we can do something when you are back
Laura says:
ya like play poker cause last time i beat you.
Tyler says:
sure
Tyler says:
we can do whatever you like hone
Tyler says:
y
Tyler says:
i will play if kevin plays
Tyler says:
but i will win you do know htat
Laura says:
no, who got all the face cards and aces
Tyler says:
not me
Laura says:
ya it was me
Tyler says:
well we'll see
Tyler says:
anyhow
Tyler says:
i read Katie's revamped diary thingy
Laura says:
lol ya and
Tyler says:
well two things
Tyler says:
for one
Tyler says:
is she as flirtatious as you are when drunk?
Laura says:
o yes she is
Tyler says:
worse?
Tyler says:
or is she worse when sober?
Laura says:
no we are both worse when drunk
Tyler says:
i figured as much
Laura says:
lol, its rather funny cause i am talking to kakes and she is so drunk right now
Laura says:
i cant even understand her
Tyler says:
well
Laura says:
lol
Laura says:
i so cannot wait til she gets back home and we can be drunk together
Tyler says:
it'll be fun no doubt
Laura says:
o yes.
Tyler says:
and trouble as well
Laura says:
yep you will have to keep on eye on me. i dont want to cause any trouble at all.
Tyler says:
ha i won't be there
Laura says:
o i see. fine then.
Tyler says:
you two should have a good time together
Tyler says:
no boys
Tyler says:
i seems katie is rather angry at them
Laura says:
but i like boys.
Laura says:
o well i like a boy.
Tyler says:
hahahaha
Laura says:
your the only one i have eyes for. cross my heart and hope to die
Tyler says:
i know
Tyler says:
it's a very nice feeling trust me
Laura says:
good i miss you so much right now. i am antsy waiting til tomorrow. then i can hug you and smile,
Tyler says:
i love your smiles
Laura says:
lol ya i love your smiles to, it makes your face seem so perfect
Tyler says:
well i try me best
Laura says:
good, you should try
Tyler says:
hahaha ofcourse
Laura says:
ya, well its not like you need to though.
Laura says:
cause god you are perfect
Tyler says:
not nearly as perfect as you
Laura says:
no babes you dont understand. you are perfect. i am just a girl.
Tyler says:
a girl that means everything to me
Tyler says:
darling you have no idea how imperfect i am
Tyler says:
and jsut how perfect you are
Tyler says:
k
Tyler says:
we're leaving it at that
Laura says:
you know why we are having this argument?
Laura says:
it cause
Tyler says:
everyone who argues with me loses
Laura says:
we have the qualities that the other lacks
Laura says:
you can write essays i cannot
Laura says:
i can cook and you can only make steak
Laura says:
you can play soccer and i can play badmontion
Tyler says:
ohhh i love Badminton
Tyler says:
are you good?
Laura says:
ya i am
Laura says:
i can do lawndry you cannot
Tyler says:
let's play badminton
Laura says:
o fuck,
Laura says:
okies babes you are on
Tyler says:
i need a paddle
Tyler says:
and a shuttlecock
Tyler says:
hehe
Laura says:
lol, wow tyler you are gross
Tyler says:
what
Tyler says:
that's the "ball" for badminton
Tyler says:
you fool
Laura says:
o i just call it the shuttle
Tyler says:
sigh
Tyler says:
much to learn you still have m young padawan
Laura says:
ya i think you should teach me jedi master
Laura says:
all you know
Tyler says:
time it takes to instruct
Tyler says:
hast is not prudent
Tyler says:
haste*
Laura says:
o i have all the time in the world
Tyler says:
good good
Laura says:
so are there going to be any other girls at andrew b-day thing?
Tyler says:
no
Laura says:
i feel like i am intruding then
Laura says:
it should be a guys thing
Tyler says:
honestly no one minds
Tyler says:
it's good when you tag along
Laura says:
lol okies. i'll trust you babes.
Tyler says:
it is
Tyler says:
i will call you when we are going
Tyler says:
you don't have to come if you don't want to
Laura says:
i want to come cause i want to see you, and i like andrew, so i should say a happy birthday
Tyler says:
well then you should
Tyler says:
i love your company
Laura says:
gosh i like your company too, and i am missing it so bad right now
Laura says:
all i wnt to do and can think of is that i want to kiss you
Tyler says:
darling you are ever so good to me
Laura says:
i know, i am the best arent i.

Tyler says:
indeed you are
Tyler says:
simply the best
Laura says:
yep i am number one and no one can beat me.
Tyler says:
no they most certainly can't
Tyler says:
ohhh that's the other thing i read i almost forgot
Laura says:
huh that i am the best?
Tyler says:
hahaha
Tyler says:
other than that
Laura says:
i donno ty, i am kinda out of it right now
Tyler says:
tired?
Laura says:
no i am not tired.
Tyler says:
just semi-toxicated
Laura says:
sure we can say that.
Laura says:
i like when i am ,
Laura says:
cause i get dazed
Laura says:
and when i listen to music its my great escape
Tyler says:
well that's good
Laura says:
but then it makes me miss you so much and i wish that you are here with me,
Tyler says:
i wish much of the same darling
Tyler says:
but yeah
Tyler says:
i was meaning to say that i read that list of Katie's boy hating topics
Tyler says:
and i noticed a certain item on that list that was highly related if not totatly motivated by me
Laura says:
ya i knida told her about that,
Laura says:
i tell her almost everything.
Laura says:
i hope that is ok by you
Laura says:
and if it not ok
Laura says:
i will stop right now
Tyler says:
don't be silly
Tyler says:
who I am to say who you can talk to and what you can talk about
Tyler says:
and no it is perfectly fine by me I am glad you have someone like that to talk to
Laura says:
lol i am glad that you dont object.
Tyler says:
so what did you tell her?
Laura says:
i told her about you needing me at the top of your list.
Laura says:
and that your ever so sweet
Laura says:
she gives you a gold star for shoveling my driveway tonight
Tyler says:
what did she say to that?
Tyler says:
lol wow a little goes a long way
Laura says:
that you are a silly boy who doesnt understand girls and their best girlfriend
Tyler says:
well that is apparent
Tyler says:
so what is it that i don't understand?
Tyler says:
i believed my argument was fairly convincing but i am nonetheless interested to hear what it is I am lacking in understanding?
Laura says:
what is it with you and your arguments. like you have good ones, but that always doesnt mean that it matters.
Laura says:
like the level of understanding we have for each other is great
Laura says:
we can finish each others sentences if we wanted to
Tyler says:
yes ok
Tyler says:
but that doesn't answer my question
Laura says:
i dont know how to answerit
Tyler says:
my question is what am I not understanding about the relations between to girl best friends and my complex?
Tyler says:
ahhhhhhhh
Laura says:
i dont know how to answer it, all i know is that it is very important. i mean, you would feel incomplete with out a best friend girl relationship
Tyler says:
that's not the point
Tyler says:
but that doesn't matter i know all i need to know
Laura says:
i am sorry i didnt give you the answers you were looking for
Tyler says:
what?
Laura says:
o you said something about "thats not the point"
Tyler says:
yeah it's not
Laura says:
k then.
Tyler says:
do you tell her different things than you tell me?
Laura says:
i tell her that you can be a dick sometimes
Laura says:
and i tell her that i love you to death
Laura says:
and wouldnt trade you for the world
Laura says:
i tell her that you are a guy in love that doesnt want to get hurt
Tyler says:
so by not answering what i am asking
Tyler says:
which is not complicated this time
Tyler says:
i can fill in the blanks myself
Laura says:
you are jealous of what kakes and i have arent you
Tyler says:
yes
Tyler says:
very
Laura says:
your going to have to execpt that babes. i am sorry that i have a strong friendship with her.
Laura says:
but i also have a strong one with you too
Laura says:
and you are in a place in my heart where no one will ever enter
Tyler says:
the fact that I am jealous of your friendship doesn't mean that I haven't accepted it
Tyler says:
i am just envious of you because you've had something i've wanted for a long time
Laura says:
you have me now babes
Laura says:
i dont understand how you dont have a relationship like this, i mean you have so many friends. you have kevin
Tyler says:
yes we are good friends
Tyler says:
very good friends
Tyler says:
but we don't have what you two have
Laura says:
aww.
Tyler says:
you see that's why i've fallen for you so deeply
Tyler says:
because you are everything to me
Laura says:
i hope it stays like that
Tyler says:
you are everythign that i've been searching for
Tyler says:
and so much more
Laura says:
do you know how special that makes me feel
Laura says:
i have been searching for a long time to, that special some one to be with til i am old and smeely
Laura says:
smelly*
Tyler says:
well
Tyler says:
i hope i don't disappoint
Tyler says:
can i ask you something?
Laura says:
ya go ahead
Tyler says:
two things actually i know them may seem childish and stupid but they are bugging me
Laura says:
okies go ahead
Tyler says:
please answer me honestly
Laura says:
i will i promise.
Tyler says:
did you really mean all those things you said to me, without me influencing you or pressuring you to say them?
Laura says:
100% I did. tyler i love you, you mean everything to me, if i lose you i know i would cry everyday for a year.
Laura says:
i promise that you are number one in my books.
Laura says:
above kakes and my other friends
Tyler says:
do you tell them, katie included, the same things you've said here?
Laura says:
i dont talk to my other friends much.
Laura says:
just kakes
Tyler says:
what do you tell her then?
Tyler says:
i could understand
Tyler says:
either way
Tyler says:
i just want to know honestly
Laura says:
at first i was like tyler is so stupid, who does he think he is asking me to place him above my best friend kakes, that he has no right. But then i feel deeper in love with you and it changed. I reailzed that i am so deeply in love with you i would drop everything and come to you.
Tyler says:
lol
Tyler says:
babes it's ok if you tell her different stuff
Tyler says:
i understand
Tyler says:
i still feel absolutly stupid for telling about all of this when i did
Tyler says:
it should have been at a later time
Tyler says:
put as you know, you have too strong a power over me
Laura says:
ya maybe it should of but dont dewell on it, what has been said has been said, i forget about your complex all the time
Tyler says:
lol
Tyler says:
so yeah you do tell her different stuff?
Laura says:
yes and no
Tyler says:
it's like your paper darling where you write and/or and I say which is it
Laura says:
lol ya i suppose so
Laura says:
is something bugging you tonight. i have a feeling something is
Tyler says:
this was bugging me
Laura says:
for how long
Tyler says:
i didn't want to trick myself into thinking things I am not
Tyler says:
since i read Katie's dairy
Tyler says:
and that specific # on her list
Laura says:
honey, dont be worried. I am with you for the rest of my life. you and me. you make me feel like i am at home, you make me fell that i belong
Tyler says:
i know it feels very very nice
Tyler says:
but babes
Tyler says:
i still want to know
Laura says:
know what? that i dont really consider you at the top of my list
Tyler says:
no is that you tell Katie about this topic different that what you tell me?
Tyler says:
do you play both sides of the coin?
Tyler says:
do you tell her or I what we want to hear, or what is the truth?
Laura says:
i play the coin. there are you happy, i am not proud, but i dont get it. i dont get that i cant have the two of you at the top of my list. but if it came down to it and you both needed me at the same time, i would go to you. you probably hate me now dont you. i hate this complex of yours, i really do,
Tyler says:
all i wanted was for you to tell me the truth
Laura says:
ya but then there are your judgements
Tyler says:
what about them?
Laura says:
i know it hurts what i said
Tyler says:
what?
Tyler says:
the truth hurts
Tyler says:
famous maxim
Laura says:
ya so what do you say to what i said i want to know that
Tyler says:
i'm glad you told me the truth
Tyler says:
and i can understand your reasoning
Laura says:
i feel like i am in a game or tug a war
Tyler says:
i can understand that
Tyler says:
and that's exactly what i didn't want
Laura says:
and that i am the rope and you and kakes are pulling me opposite ways
Laura says:
well what did you expect?
Laura says:
i cant choose one of you over the other, its not easy.
Laura says:
it might be easy for you cause you dont have a relationship like i have with kakes, except for me.
Tyler says:
i know
Laura says:
i am sorry.
Laura says:
are yo hurt.
Tyler says:
don't be sorry
Tyler says:
why would i be hurt?
Tyler says:
i knew this all along in the back of my head
Laura says:
i just dont want you to look at me differently
Tyler says:
i don't look at you differently
Laura says:
k.
Laura says:
what was the other question you wanted to know
Tyler says:
that was them
Tyler says:
so we're tied then katie and I?
Tyler says:
for your illustrious #1 spot as i would put it?
Laura says:
yes and it will forever be like that.
Laura says:
can you excpt that
Tyler says:
i don't know
Tyler says:
i would have to change everything i believe in, everything I stand for
Tyler says:
and you would probably have to do the same
Laura says:
what do you believe in, stand for.
Laura says:
i want to make sure i understand your side fully
Tyler says:
in what terms?
Laura says:
relationships, and just what you believe and stand for in genera;
Tyler says:
well i am against capital punishment lol
Tyler says:
but in relationship terms
Tyler says:
if I was to marry a girl, I would have to be absolutly certain if it can down to it, she would be the one and only person in the world i could trust completly, she would have to unconditional be my best friend, my strongest ally, my greatest supporter, and as I would put it #1 in my books. As well, i would be these same things to her
Tyler says:
if i or she couldn't meet all of these criteria i don't thing I could marry this certain person
Tyler says:
however this is only how i feel at the time
Laura says:
i dont know what to say to that.
Laura says:
how long will yo ugive the girl
Laura says:
to make you number one in her books
Tyler says:
for you, forever
Laura says:
that goes against everything you believe in
Tyler says:
i dont' care if we dont' get married
Tyler says:
i'll still be with you forever
Tyler says:
maybe i'll just be your boyfriend at 64
Tyler says:
if so, so be it
Tyler says:
i could never fidn anyone to replace you
Tyler says:
i know that for certain
Tyler says:
and i do not want you to change on my accord
Tyler says:
if changes do happy, by either party, if will be by there doing only
Laura says:
i dont just want you to be my boyfriend for the rest my life, i need marrage.
Tyler says:
and i would love to marry you
Tyler says:
that would be the happiest day of my life
Laura says:
even though you are tied for first.
Tyler says:
i couldn't do that
Laura says:
so i have to chance.
Tyler says:
or i do
Laura says:
no i know you,
Laura says:
you wont change
Laura says:
not for the life of you
Tyler says:
i don't even know that
Laura says:
no you are to strong headed
Laura says:
just like i am to change
Tyler says:
what?
Laura says:
i know that we both wont change our views on this topic
Laura says:
we might maybe later down the road., but i just dont see us changing what we think
Tyler says:
i know that if it's a choice between losign you and being tied for 1st
Tyler says:
i'll take the tie
Laura says:
are you sure.
Tyler says:
no
Tyler says:
i don't know
Laura says:
its hard isnt it.
Laura says:
i am sorry. i am sorry
Tyler says:
don't apologise for who you are
Laura says:
if i didnt have kakes as a best friend i would say yes that you are number one. but that is not the case.
Laura says:
i just dont want to lose you over this one issue, it seems so stupid.
Tyler says:
why did you tell me that I was the #1 when it wasn't the caseA?
Tyler says:
if you knew all along you should have been honest with me
Laura says:
its because i am so scared that i am going to lose you. cause i know if i lose you that, i will never find a guy out there that will ever top you.
Laura says:
and that if i lose you i will cry every night wishing i was with you.
Tyler says:
you should have told me the truth from the beginning
Tyler says:
you let me believe i was something I was not
Laura says:
your everything to me.
Laura says:
you are so special.
Tyler says:
i just didn't want to be led on
Tyler says:
told false truths
Laura says:
what are you trying to get at.
Tyler says:
just that i would have prefered you had been honest with me
Tyler says:
no matter, i ask too much of you
Laura says:
no matter... i think that is a lie.
Tyler says:
it is
Tyler says:
but i do ask too much
Laura says:
but it is who you are.
Tyler says:
it is that too
Laura says:
i dont know how we are going to deal with this
Laura says:
or where it will lead us.
Tyler says:
i don't know either
Laura says:
i think i that i just need time to think
Laura says:
i need to sort out my feelings on where i stand on everything
Tyler says:
you know that already
Tyler says:
if you still feel this strong a bond, then it won't go away
Tyler says:
and there is nothing i can do to change that, no matter what
Laura says:
but if this strong bond results in me losing you, then i will end up resenting katie and there goes the 2 relationships that mattered to me.
Tyler says:
you won't resent her
Laura says:
yes i will.
Tyler says:
no you won't
Laura says:
i want to know this..
Laura says:
if i dont change and have you number one in your life will you break up with me.
Tyler says:
you mean if its still a tie?
Laura says:
ya.
Tyler says:
i don't know
Tyler says:
i'd have to examine myself
Tyler says:
and see what i really want at the end of the day
Tyler says:
all I know is that as of right now i've never felt as strongly for anyone as I feel for you
Laura says:
that is until, a girl ten times out of my legue truns up in your life and you start to like her. then i am in trouble arent i
Tyler says:
no
Tyler says:
it will always be you
Tyler says:
i meant everything i said to y
Tyler says:
ou
Tyler says:
every last word
Tyler says:
and if you don't feel the same way, that's my problem
Laura says:
this is so complicated.
Laura says:
i pronised myself i wouldnt cry this week, and i ended up crying tonight.
Tyler says:
so did I
Laura says:
i guess i am just too overly emotional sometimes
Tyler says:
no
Laura says:
ya i am
Tyler says:
you've made up your mind
Tyler says:
i respect that
Laura says:
you just dont like the answer
Tyler says:
no, but there's nothing I can do
Laura says:
are you stuck.
Laura says:
i know you wish that i have you as #1 only.
Tyler says:
but its not to be
Tyler says:
you can't always get what you want
Laura says:
but this is so important to you
Laura says:
it is so intageral to your being,
Tyler says:
yes it is
Tyler says:
but there is nothing I can do to change this
Laura says:
but it is so key to you, i feel so bad.
Tyler says:
it's not your fault
Tyler says:
you can't change who you are because of me
Laura says:
please dont break up with me over this please. i couldnt handle losing you.
Tyler says:
i can't promise anything and i have to look inside myself and see what it is i want in the long run, for the rest of my life
Laura says:
k
Tyler says:
i don't know if i can live like that, knowing it's not just me who means everything to you
Tyler says:
i just want to be honest
Laura says:
i dont know what to say, i dont know what to think any more.
Tyler says:
i'm not expecting anything now, but if we were to get married, this would be what i would hope for
Laura says:
to me what you are saying means if i was to get married to you i would have to shrug off katie.
Tyler says:
that's not what i'm saying at all
Tyler says:
my parents didn't lose all their friend when they married each other
Tyler says:
they are just each others best friend, each others #1
Laura says:
ya i understand.
Laura says:
i just cant stop crying.
Laura says:
this is eatting me up inside
Tyler says:
if we were to get married, could you accept this?
Laura says:
yes.
Tyler says:
are you sure?
Tyler says:
if we got married, i would be your sole #1, your greatest ally, your best friend?
Laura says:
you would be all of those.
Tyler says:
honestly?
Tyler says:
without any trace of doubt
Laura says:
i am not going to tell you that now, for i feel it is important that i saw it to your face. it will have much more meaning and impact. but yes without any trace of doubt.
Tyler says:
wow Laura
Tyler says:
you have made me the happiest man in the world
Tyler says:
if i can convicne you to marry me
Laura says:
lol, ya good luck.
Tyler says:
i will give it my all
Tyler says:
and everything else
Tyler says:
i'll be throwing everything but teh kitchen sink at you
Tyler says:
and then if i have to, the kitchen sink
Laura says:
lol. ya throw the kitchen sink at me.
Laura says:
this has been very tough.
Tyler says:
are you sure you meant it?
Tyler says:
if we get married, we'll be all those things to one another?
Tyler says:
if you don't know, then tell me so
Tyler says:
if there is ANY reason to hold back in your mind
Tyler says:
then tell me
Laura says:
i meant it, i really did, i just feel like i am betraying her thats all.
Tyler says:
well then there is a feeling of doubt
Laura says:
well i am sorry.
Tyler says:
no
Tyler says:
don't be
Tyler says:
if you feel that, you are being honest
Tyler says:
that is what i asked
Laura says:
i just dont want this to be an issue that gets inbetween us. pushes us away.
Tyler says:
i can't just ignore it
Tyler says:
i address problems head on
Tyler says:
i don't want to brush it aside, deal with it later
Laura says:
then how are you going to deal with this problem.
Tyler says:
analyze myself
Tyler says:
because it is clear to me now
Tyler says:
that you cannot change
Tyler says:
and i respect that
Tyler says:
now the question is can I
Laura says:
and we know the answer to that.
Tyler says:
no we don't
Laura says:
good, cause i am going to find every will and might that i have to change how i feel, cause there is no way in hell that i am leting you go
Tyler says:
darling
Tyler says:
you feelings are too strong
Tyler says:
they are just too too strong
Laura says:
i have fallen for you, hard. i have never felt this way before, and i love the feeling of being with you and having you be by my side
Tyler says:
you know it's true too
Tyler says:
you know you can't and you don't know what to do
Laura says:
what are you talking about, i am confused
Tyler says:
you know you can't change your mind on this topic
Tyler says:
and you don't know what to do
Tyler says:
that's why you played both sides
Laura says:
well i think that considering i have not seen katie in 4 months. i have grown farther apart from her each day. i have lost touch with her. ya we talk online. but so what. its not conparable to hanging out with her in person.
Tyler says:
and that the fact you have not seen her in so much time, yet still have this incredible bond with her, speaks volumes to me
Tyler says:
i know you can't change, even though I don't understand
Laura says:
o so your giving up on me, you have no faith in me at all, all you are doing is backing me up in a corner.
Tyler says:
i have every faith in you
Tyler says:
you know that
Laura says:
no in this matter,
Laura says:
you have little or no faith in me
Tyler says:
it's hard for me to believe after all that's happened, but some part of me in hoping like there is not tomorrow
Laura says:
i dont want to fight, with you or argue anymore.
Tyler says:
are we fighting, or arguing?
Laura says:
i donno, but i feel anger, resentment. rejection to some extent.
Tyler says:
you think I am rejecting you?
Laura says:
ya i do, and it hurts.
Tyler says:
i am not rejecting you
Laura says:
it seems like it
Tyler says:
how's that?
Tyler says:
everything i've said translates to how much i love you
Tyler says:
what i'm asking for is not unreasonable by any extent of the imagination, and althought i find it hard to understand that you disagree, i'll have to accept that
Laura says:
i think we have a complete misunderstanding.
Laura says:
the relationship i have with kake and i have with you are on two completely different levels. they cannot be compared to each other.
Laura says:
so it would be unfair, to make me choose one over the other
Tyler says:
no one said anything about choosing
Laura says:
fine its not about choosing
Laura says:
but can you understand that the relationship i have with you is on a much higther level than the one i have with katie.
Laura says:
of course you will be number one and be my best friend, for isnt that what marragies are about,
Tyler says:
well you said you'd would feel as if you betrayed katie if you committed to me that way
Laura says:
well not any more, cause i realize that the relationship i have with you should not be compared to hers any more.
Tyler says:
babes
Tyler says:
i have screwed up
Laura says:
how.
Tyler says:
i just want a regular husband and wife relationship when it comes to that
Tyler says:
that's all i really meant
Tyler says:
i think that means being undisputed #1, best friend, most trusted person in the world
Tyler says:
that's all i really want
Laura says:
i can give you all of that.
Tyler says:
and you won't feel as if you've betrayed anyone
Laura says:
nobody will stand in the way of that/
Laura says:
no not at all.
Tyler says:
are you sure?
Tyler says:
absolutly sure
Laura says:
omg. yes.
Laura says:
and i will tell you again to your face next time i see you.
Tyler says:
i love you
Laura says:
i know that.
Tyler says:
more than you know
Tyler says:
and even when times get stuff
Tyler says:
i just find i love you more than ever
Tyler says:
i don't know what i'd do without you
Laura says:
i am not sure of that any more.
Tyler says:
sure of what?
Laura says:
"i dont know what i'd do without you.
Tyler says:
i don't
Tyler says:
i didn't know
Tyler says:
that's why i was so scared
Laura says:
stop being scared.
Tyler says:
can you assure me of that?
Laura says:
yes do not be scared any more. bury it.
Tyler says:
ok
Laura says:
is there anything else, you wanted to bring up while we are at it.
Tyler says:
haha no
Laura says:
thats good cause i dont think i could handle anything more.
Tyler says:
other than i love you to death darling
Tyler says:
and i'd be nobody without you
Laura says:
i love you.
Tyler says:
i love you too Laura
Laura says:
so is this issue resloved then.
Laura says:
do you believe me when i say that you are number one and my best friend.
Tyler says:
do you promise?
Tyler says:
and do you honestly mean it?
Laura says:
i will tell you that tomorrow, for i want you to look in my eyes and believe what i am saying is true.
Laura says:
i mean it
Laura says:
and i promise
Tyler says:
then i believe you
Tyler says:
i did before
Tyler says:
i do now
Laura says:
i am happy and releaved
Tyler says:
me too
Tyler says:
i am sorry
Tyler says:
about my complex darling
Tyler says:
and that i sprung it too soon
Laura says:
no it is fine,
Laura says:
it is my fault that you apoke of it too soon
Tyler says:
no
Tyler says:
it's not
Laura says:
ya i begged you
Laura says:
it is my fault.
Tyler says:
i could have not told you
Laura says:
but you broke down like you always do when i beg you
Tyler says:
that i did
Laura says:
i just hope that this doesnt hurt our relatonship to much. i hate it when there is a misunderstanding.
Tyler says:
no, it hasn't hurt anything, in fact
Tyler says:
its made it stronger
Laura says:
i hope so.
Tyler says:
it has
Tyler says:
without word of a lie
Tyler says:
i love you darling
Tyler says:
always have
Tyler says:
alwaus will
Tyler says:
nothing will ever change that
Laura says:
i hope so, god, i hope.
Tyler says:
i know it will
Tyler says:
darling, we can talk and work things out
Tyler says:
i won't let anything happen like this to us again
Tyler says:
i won't
Tyler says:
i promise
Laura says:
i will trust you with that
Tyler says:
good
Laura says:
did i hurt you in any way tonight?
Tyler says:
nothing that hasn't been repaired
Laura says:
repaired good, or just patched up
Tyler says:
well when you said that it was a tie again, after I had been believing otherwise, that hurt
Tyler says:
and there was something i typed that made me cry
Laura says:
can you tell me what it was that made you cry
Tyler says:
what i said?
Laura says:
ya. i want to know
Tyler says:
do you tell her or I what we want to hear, or what is the truth?
Tyler says:
and
Tyler says:
Tyler says:
you should have told me the truth from the beginning
Tyler says:
you let me believe i was something I was not

Tyler says:
i don't know if i can live like that, knowing it's not just me who means everything to you

Tyler says:
those were them
Laura says:
o babes, you are a special boy who means the world to me, and nothing can change that.
Tyler says:
i know
Tyler says:
please just don't ever tell me what i want to hear and then let me find out it's not the truth
Tyler says:
that hurt a lot
Tyler says:
but i'm ok now
Laura says:
i wont ever again, even if the truth hurts, i will still tell you the truth
Tyler says:
thank you
Tyler says:
k babes i gotta go to sleep now i can't stay up anymore
Tyler says:
i love you to pieces i will come get you tomorrow
Laura says:
okies. nights nights and love you
Tyler says:
bye bye