I am actually still really choked on both accounts. I guess mulling or sulking around this weekend did not help. At least work is keeping me busy, no time to think this next month. But I wish I could talk to someone about all of this. The only problem is that I wouldn't go to anyone with how I am feeling at the moment. I wish I have that closeness with people like I used to. I am afraid to open up to people for multiple reasons. Hmmm.