I want to believe that I am heading my life in the direction I want it to go...to be....but I don't think that is happening. I want it to evolve into the dreams and wishes I have always wanted my life to be. I have some block-aids that are stopping me from truely living the life that I want to live. I want to enjoy every second of what time I have left until I become that old grandma- who bye the way is very hip and goes to timmies every day- that remembers a time in her childhood where she was happy and was proud to say that she lived it up well.